Happiness Is A Blur

When I laughed
When did I last laugh
I laughed today
Not because I was happyBecause I didn’t realize
I had said a joke
They laughed
So I laughed too
It didn’t reach my soul
Or even my heart
There were not even wrinkle lines
Under my eyes
When I laughed
When did I laugh last
I laughed today
Not because I was happy
I laughed when they laughed
Yet my happiness is a Blur still