I have such an Overwhelming heaviness in my chest

I can feel it literally sitting on me

My eyes are full of tears

That I do not want to let fall

I cry alone

When no one is watching me

I cried really hard

It has been a while since I cried

That much

That hard

That long

I needed to unswallow this hard stone

That has lodged itself down my throat

Now into my chest till my stomach hurts

I don’t want to be without you my baby

They say it gets better

All lies

When will this darkness end

I have no faith anymore

Faith in myself

Faith in my life

Faith in God

Where does that leave me

I am only left speaking to an empty womb

I want to move forward

Yet pain of loosing you is stuck inside my being

This womb that held you within me

Now cries that you left too soon

How do I heal it

When I have no strength to even be angry

Emptiness

Emptiness

Emptiness

I can hear it echo in my entire body, soul, heart

Where does that leave me

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This poem is about the profound grief and emptiness that follows the loss of a baby. It captures the raw emotional reality of mourning a child who was once carried, loved, and imagined as part of the future.

The poem portrays grief not as a distant sadness but as a physical presence, a heaviness in the chest, a stone lodged in the throat, and an ache that spreads throughout the entire body.

It expresses the loneliness of carrying such pain in private, crying when no one is watching and struggling to find relief from sorrow that feels all-consuming.

The poem also explores the crisis of faith and identity that can accompany devastating loss. The repeated questioning of faith, in oneself, in life, and in God, reveals a deep struggle to understand how such a painful event could happen.

Promises that “it gets better” feel hollow against the reality of the grief being experienced. The loss has created a sense of disconnection from everything that once provided comfort, leaving behind uncertainty, doubt, and a feeling of being emotionally stranded.

The poem reflects the difficult reality that grief can shake the foundations of a person’s beliefs and understanding of the world.

At its heart, the poem is a conversation with absence. The image of “speaking to an empty womb” symbolizes the longing for a child who is no longer there and the struggle to reconcile the body’s memory of carrying life with the reality of loss.

The womb becomes both a reminder of love and a source of heartbreak. The repeated word “Emptiness” echoes throughout the poem, emphasizing how grief can leave a void that seems to touch every part of existence.

The closing question, “Where does that leave me?” captures the central theme of the poem, searching for meaning, direction, and the possibility of healing after a loss that has changed everything.