Selfish Side Of Grief

I am selfish
With my grief
I will not
Share my pain

With no one
Not yet
I cannot
Speak of my pain
To no one
I will be selfish
With my grief
I will not
Share my loss
With you
I do not know
Where to start
I understand not
When to feel
Less broken
So I will be selfish
With my grief
Until
It hurts no more
And
I can breath
Without pain
Or heaviness
Or anger
Can it be possible
Allow me
To be
Selfish
With my grief