Grieve As Much As You Want

When she leaves
When he is gone
When they are no more
Grieve as much as you want

Let no one tell you to stop
Let him not say it is enough
Let her not say dry your eyes
They should not tell you to be strong
Crumble down if you want
Curl into a ball if you feel that
Disappear into your mind if you have to
It is your right to hurt
Sit on the dirt
And throw a tantrum
Roll around in the mud
Like a child
Sleep on concrete when it rains
Lie on your left over pizza
Sit on the bathroom floor and weep
Sleep on unwashed laundry if you have to
It is your right to hurt
Let those tears fall without shame
Heave and cough out those heavy emotions
Let mucous fall from your nose
Without a care
Cry at the grocery store
Curse at the air or trees or sand or the wall or a cat or humans or food
Scream in the middle of the night
It is your pain
It is your loss
It is your defeat
It is your darkness
It is your undoing
It is your own grief
And your right to hurt
So grieve as much as you want
Until you can blink without tears
Until you can say their name without skipping a breath
Until their picture does not haunt you
Until smiling no longer hurts
It is your right to hurt
Let no one take it away from you
Until you can give your hurt away
So baby, go ahead
Grieve as much as you want