I’ m back to where I started

Back to nothing

Back to home

Back to single hood

Back to no baby

Back to joblessness

Back to loneliness

Back to no one

Back to where I started

I’ m back to how it began

Back to everything gone

Back to everyone gone

Back to every regret

Back to every haunting demon

Back to every ghost

Back to every loss

Back to every grief

Back to every pain

Back to how it began

I’m back to when it all ended

Back to wishing

Back to fantasizing

Back to hallucinating

Back to dreaming

Back to hoping

Back to wanting

Back to staggering

Back to chanting

Back to stammering

Back to when it all ended

I’ m back to who I was running from

Back to being afraid to love

Back to being afraid to dream

Back to being afraid to ask

Back to being afraid to laugh

Back to being afraid to disagree

Back to being afraid to change

Back to being afraid to let go

Back to being afraid to accept

Back to who I was running away from

I’ m back to what I left

Back to guilt

Back to rage

Back to anger

Back to regret

Back to depression

Back to fear

Back to sorrow

Back to heartache

Back to mourning

Back to sadness

Back to empty

Back to what I left

I’ m back to what broke me

Back to tears on my pillow

Back to restless nights on my bed

Back to nightmare filled dreams

Back to heart stopping pain

Back to seeing you leave me

Back to headache filled mornings

Back to jealous outbursts

Back to grieving for time not spent

Back to what broke me

I’ m back

Back to…

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